For Him. I had a good time today, I saw you, I had a chance to be close to someone, if only for a few hours. and it may have been different feeling for you than it was for me, but I enjoyed it.
So, here it is, my diary. I feel the need for this to finally write down everything in my head, you may not want to read this, In-fact I doubt anyone will. but if one person just takes 5 minutes to glance over my post, my diary, my blog. It would mean something to me. See the reason why I wanted to blog, or keep an online diary is because I feel so trapped and stuck I need to let it out. Those that will know me, may figure out who I am. But those that don't let me explain a little bit about why I am doing this. I've had a 50/50 good/shitty life. for me anyway. Yes I am not dead (yet), yes, I do have a room over my head, but am I happy? far from it, and I haven't been happy for a long time! too long. we all grow up[ with ideas and dreams in our head and we one day hope it will happen, and it does happen, for lots of my "friends" it has happened. Everyone wants to find someone, to marry, to have kids, dream house. and I am no exception. The only thing is, n...